Vengeance.

#Before I'd realized it, I had given up on everything... Always thinking "whatever" or "bothersome", without even trying. The only thing that keeps me from falling into the depths of my mind is my dream, the goal I've set in my life... The future... I hope it'll... save me from myself..^-^''.. Man that sounded stupid...# This is what she once said. That person. Do you think it sounds stupid? Because I don't... Yesterday I had a chat with BabyFace, we or.. generally I, was talking about stuff that's going on in the life... I don't know the reason but she suddenly asked me not to write about her in my blog anymore... She said something like "too much trouble". First I thought that maybe it'd be better to compeletly stop bloging... But she'd only asked me not to write about Her... So I won't write about Her, but instead, some unamed persons... So that she doesn't have anything to worry, to be angry or bothered by... (or whatever her stupid reason may be)... I can't believe that she'd say something like that >:[ It somehow makes me angry..... Fuck that. I guess she's so pleased with her life now that she got accepted to the exchange year in Japan, that she doesn't need anybody to remind her of her true nature. Manikine that's what she is... Always so perfect on the surface, but yet so disturbed and lonley inside... Wonder if there'll ever be a person who really gets through to her? If there is, then I'd certainly want to meet her/him... If she keeps going on like this, her soul and mind will eventually become disturbed... If someone, then I know that for sure... Yeah. Now I'll be going. C~ya.

Future. Past. And everything between.

New year... huh... When I look back now, the gone year seems like a short breath... I remember the first day of -08. Didn't eat anything. A day of starvation... It was like a summary of the coming year. Starvation, vomiting and pain... Wonder how this year will turn out to be?...