I talked to her again today... My mother hasn't been feeling so well lately, it's because of her reumatism... She can't sleep at night... This makes me worried.. It was four o´clock in the morning when I called her to talk to her about this.. As usually she didn't get mad at me for waking her up... When I explained the situation for her, she told me that it was okay to be worried, but she also said that it wouldn't help my mother at all... That's true... If I worry about mother and don't sleep, then she'll become worried about me and stop sleeping even the short periods of time that she's sleeping now... Complicated...
Her (phone friend) mother had a cardiac infraction about five years ago... Must have been horrible to only be twelve years old and have to worry about if you mother will survive or not.. And to think, in the beginning nobody even told her why her mother was away, they just said "She's in the hospital, getting better".. and a few days after that she heard it from a almost complete stranger, when he asked her grandmother how her mother was doing, he said something like "hi.. I heard what happened to "the mother"... a heart attack right? How is her recovery going? It's really a relief to hear that she survived... We were so worried about her"... If you'd ask me I'd have scolded the grandmother right away... But she just kept silent as she always does... damn she's so hard to understand! why doesn't she say when she's feeling like crap?! Why doesn't she ever show her sad face to us others? Why does she only show her "happy", "sleepy" or "frustrated" moods... So emotionless... Even they aren't for real... pisses me off to think about this... well yeah. it sucks. eheheee. I got a comment on one of my posts earlier...--'' Ya' know if you're reading this... that comment didn't have anything to do with the actual post... and yes she is lonely, if you're her friend and haven't notised this, then you should start paying a bit more attention to her... by the way yes I did and do know that it's her greatest dream to become an exchange student in Japan.. It's just that sometimes she gets a bit too happy and lost in her dream world of happiness, so that she forgets about the reality that isn't a dance on roses. Then see you.
About Me
- Satsuki
- Hi! I'm a fifteen years ol' girl from the southern part of Finland. My "name" is Satsuki, and I like almost everything that has to do with Japan!
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I mean....if she is like you say that she is then I think that it's okey to dance on roses from time to time....everybody does sometimes I think. I hope I didn't offended you. I think that we are sometimes in the same position towards Her. But maybe that's just the way she is..and there is nothing we can do about it..
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